Strive to Survive

I want to be gracious, I need to be kind
We are not the same kind anymore

Where did all the flowers go?
He brought me violets, I'd rather have what no
flowers guarantee.

I'll never understand, and I don't say that to
whine,
but to clarify.
I will never have lived in your shoes, had your
heart.
But I try, I love you.
My God is not your God, though He could be.  

You speak of hills and souls,
Oh to transcend to your heart,
and understand your ways is my goal

But not everything is possible for me
Though I love, I do not always understand

The rape of thoughts
the burn of razors on my skin

These things have fled me, and I do not particularly
want them back.

Though I keep trying to understand, I am beginning to
realize that you are a maze,
Maybe what you say is meant to mystify me and everyone
else

Your pain is real but your justifications fail
It's as if they were falsified,
Your life is lovely, love love lovely

I'll do what I want, I 'll do what I want


Strive to survive, strive to survive

My pain was crippling, your face is growing dim
The scars remind me that I am real
The darkness surounds me at times,
But I have learned to fight harder,
I may not always know where I am going
but I know where I have been


4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it
does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it
is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it
keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in
evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects,
always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies,
they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be
stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but
when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.
11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought
like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a
man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a
poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face
to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully,
even as I am fully known.

13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love.
But the greatest of these is love.